Vacation

I know you've got stuff going on. I wish I could fix it, at least help a little. I can't, but you have to know I would try everything I could. You've done so much for me, I hate to ask for more. But I need someone and you're always my someone. You're my person. Everybody is caught up in this. I need a break. Something to take my mind off things. Something to be normal, constant.

People keep telling me, "you're stronger then you think". No! I know I'm strong, I've proven that, to myself and other people. This is a lot to handle. Even for a strong person. I'm a fighter, I'm not giving up, don't think that. I just can't do it alone.

Strong people need help sometimes too. I'm not asking for help, just support. I want something normal, something I can count on, right now I can't count on anything. I need a constant.

God is constant. I know that. I read my bible. I pray. I talk to God. I go to church. I went to a Christian high school. I know. So please don't tell me that. We all need a little help sometimes. I'm just asking for a hand. Someone to stand by me, behind me, support me, talk to me, love me.

Its a promise. It never goes away. Please don't turn your back. We can help each other.

Constant. Solid. Always.

I've been through a lot. At least it felt that way then.

I think I'm strong. "I'm a good man in a storm."

Right now I feel like I'm sinking.

Keep waiting for someone to grab my hand.

Hasn't happened.

I don't want to say I need help.

I don't.

Just need a break.

I feel alone.