Never underestimate

The first step to every journey feels like a leap. Only because its unknown, I wish we could fast forward a little and see that everything works out. That would save people a lot of stress and worry. On the other hand, I don't think people would pray as much. They already have a problem with that as it is. Prayer is all that we can truly rely on to get us through those unknown leaps. Its a leap of faith for a reason. The doubts we have and that voice in your head that says "what if" and "what are you thinking" those are just words. Thats not something we can put any stock into, its pointless. We can take leaps of faith and they will work out. Here's the thing though, if you take a leap of faith and it doesn't work out. You still took a leap and there are still people who think you're awesome and can do anything. A lot of people never take that leap. What if you don't take a chance, you never experience the full life you could've had. Stress is normal, doubt is the devil.

Now to take my own advice. Sigh.

1...2...3...GO!

The House That Built Me...if you haven't heard it, find it, listen to it! The first time I heard that song I must admit I got a little teary eyed. As my parents and I, along with my grandpa, redo a new house in Columbus, Ga I have a mixture of feelings. Not only is my family moving out of the only house I ever grew up in but I am moving from Statesboro (where I've been for almost 4 years) to be with them.

Yeah it will be great to be with my family and not worry so much about money for rent and school. What is getting to me is that I'm leaving some of the greatest people four hours away. All of my friends minus a very few are in Statesboro. I know nobody in Columbus/Pine Mountain. Scary! Its okay I know I'll make friends, I'm good at that, I mean come on, I'm funny and awesome! So its bitter sweet, it'll be an adventure, and I'll get to be there while Toby and Jay grow up. It's going to be great!

I have to keep telling myself that. I just moved the last of my stuff out and handed over the keys to my house in Statesboro. It has been told to me several times that I will visit often. Trust me I will! In the beginning it will be weird though. I'm ready for that. What I'm not ready for is to move all that stuff that I took from Statesboro to Pine Mountain and not to North Augusta. I have lived there my entire life. I don't really like the idea of the boys having such a totally different childhood then Stephanie and I had. They won't go to the schools we both grew up at, or the same church. Its all very weird.

Thats why that song upset me. All the memories I have basically are of that house or of Augusta in general. I did my homework there, hit my sister in the eye with a wooden block in that living room. I watched them turn our back porch into an office for my dad and remember when his business was too big and they built a place further out for him. Now I'm just rambling. So...

With change comes growth and now I'll have new memories in a new house. I'll do my homework there too, maybe I can even talk Stephanie into letting me hit her again. I'll make different friends, not new ones to replace the old ones, thats not possible. Just different ones. Who knows they might even be better then the friends I have now. Shh don't tell them I said that. I really am excited, and nervous. I just want all of the back and forth to be over so my emotion and my brain can relax and settle somewhere.