Friday, January 28, 2011

Fight Like Hell; Raising Awareness

Lance Armstrong once said, "We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up or fight like hell."

I'm gonna go with fight like hell. How bout you?

Each year the government, along with private "investors" pay doctors and researchers to help find a cure for AIDS. So far, since the infection was first reported in 1981 by the CDC, there have been major breakthroughs. People can now live years on medication while being HIV positive and the disease not progress into AIDS for a very long time. Even without treatment one can learn that he or she is HIV positive and live for years before AIDS becomes a "hindrance" to them and they eventual die from it.

In 2008, AIDS research was given roughly 16 billion dollars globally. There are many studies being done on patients who are HIV positive, have AIDS already, and also on patients that have died from the disease. Prevention in many cases is possible.


This is not about AIDS. This is about 21,000 women in America who die each year due to lack of research, knowledge, and funding.

This is about cancer. And no, I'm not talking about breast cancer for the 80 billionth time. Breast cancer awareness is everywhere you turn. It has more followers on facebook than the President.

I'm talking about Ovarian Cancer. It is the same mutated cancerous gene as breast cancer but far less is known about it. 79% of women are diagnosed with ovarian cancer in stage IV...thats the last stage, for those of you who have no clue what I'm talking about.

I'm going to tell you what the reasons are that it isn't caught sooner.

  • One, because of the symptoms. By the time a woman has noticeable symptoms she's already in stage IV.


  • Two, there are really only two ways to know if you might have ovarian cancer. The first is with a transvaginal ultrasound, which is not routine. The other is a blood test called CA-125 which is, also, not routine.

Even if your CA-125 levels are off a bit, it still may not indicate ovarian cancer. There are a few reasons the levels could be out of balance. One is that you may have a benign cyst, the doctor will tell you to wait a few weeks and come back to check the levels again. But what if you already have ovarian cancer? Those few weeks are critical. The transvaginal ultrasound is a bit more reliable but not by much. This will also show what may be benign cysts, only if the cysts are without a doubt abnormal is your doctor going to not want to wait a few weeks and check back.


While your doctor is waiting, your cancer may be spreading and/or getting worse. Do you want to take that chance?

While Breast Cancer is a serious thing, a rather noninvasive surgery can be done. A small biopsy can be taken and sent off. To do a similar biopsy when Ovarian Cancer is a possibility they have to go in through your abdomen which becomes very invasive.

Research, or just years experience, has helped us gain the knowledge to make an "at risk" test called Brac1 and Brac2. This is also a blood test that looks at the genes consistent with Breast and Ovarian cancers to see if there is any type of mutation.

Breast and Ovarian cancer are hereditary. So if your grandmother had breast cancer you could be at risk for either of these. The more common it is among your family the higher your chances are of developing one of these diseases.

The Brac test doesn't mean that you will definitely get cancer, nor does it mean that you already have cancer. What the Brac test will do is tell you if you are at risk of maybe later developing cancer.

What if the test says you are at risk? Well, for one, your medical insurance company could treat you differently, your rates could change because you are "at risk". How is that even fair?! What can you do to keep from maybe developing cancer? Have surgery. Have your ovaries removed. If you are at high risk thats the only way to ensure you won't develop the disease.

They think, based on the small amount of research done, that taking the birth control pill lowers your chances. But not by much. You are still at risk, you can still develop it, and you could still die from it. Remember that by the time you show symptoms you're often in stage IV.

So how is it that more research isn't being done on this, "silent killer"? Each year billions of dollars are spent on research for other things. Things that can be detected early, treated, and things you can live with, healthy and happy, for years. Not even half of that is spent on ovarian cancer research, roughly 6 million dollars a year.

I'm currently trying to find an Ovarian Cancer research study to join. Anything I can find that I'm eligible for, not only for my benefit but for others as well. The studies I've found are being done on women that have been treated once and the cancer is recurring. Those are the few lucky women that happen to detect the disease early somehow. I'm more than willing to do whatever it would take to be part of a study that could help doctors understand, lower risks, or treat Ovarian cancer. If there was more of an awareness, more funding, more research, I could be part of that. I could be part of saving a life or making life a little better for a sister, a mother, a daughter, an aunt, or a friend.

You see, I'm at the highest risk for developing ovarian cancer, as is my sister. Our aunt passed away two months ago at the age of 41 due to ovarian cancer. She died on December 2nd. The first time she had any symptom of the disease was October 2nd. In further research we have since found that our great-great grandmother and great grandmother also died of this disease. Our great grandmother was just 31 years old when she passed, leaving behind her husband and young children.

My options right now are limited. I'm 22 years old, I have no children and there is a very likely chance I'll later develop ovarian cancer. I could get the surgery and never have kids. But who can make such a decision on such limited information at the age of 22? I know I can't.

So my hope is to raise a little awareness for those of you that may be unaware of what this disease is about and how many lives it claims. So that you can tell others and be aware of the signs so it doesn't claim more lives.

I know what this does to families. I know what it feels like to go through it and watch it happen. I wouldn't wish that on anyone, so please be aware. Listen to your body. Don't dismiss little things, they can add up. And seriously, talk to your doctor! If we can raise the awareness and get more research done and learn more about this. My kids might not have to go through what my aunt did, or their kids, or my niece, or someone you love.

You can follow this link to Ovations here you will find all the symptoms listed. Along with other ways to help raise awareness. Please don't dismiss this, its very serious. Just take a second to check it out.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Vacation

I know you've got stuff going on. I wish I could fix it, at least help a little. I can't, but you have to know I would try everything I could. You've done so much for me, I hate to ask for more. But I need someone and you're always my someone. You're my person. Everybody is caught up in this. I need a break. Something to take my mind off things. Something to be normal, constant.

People keep telling me, "you're stronger then you think". No! I know I'm strong, I've proven that, to myself and other people. This is a lot to handle. Even for a strong person. I'm a fighter, I'm not giving up, don't think that. I just can't do it alone.

Strong people need help sometimes too. I'm not asking for help, just support. I want something normal, something I can count on, right now I can't count on anything. I need a constant.

God is constant. I know that. I read my bible. I pray. I talk to God. I go to church. I went to a Christian high school. I know. So please don't tell me that. We all need a little help sometimes. I'm just asking for a hand. Someone to stand by me, behind me, support me, talk to me, love me.

Its a promise. It never goes away. Please don't turn your back. We can help each other.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Constant. Solid. Always.

I've been through a lot. At least it felt that way then.
I think I'm strong. "I'm a good man in a storm."
Right now I feel like I'm sinking.
Keep waiting for someone to grab my hand.
Hasn't happened.

I don't want to say I need help.
I don't.
Just need a break.

I feel alone.

Friday, October 1, 2010

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Sunday, September 26, 2010

Está escrito en mi muñeca.

You were strong when I couldn't be. When I didn't know how to be.
There when no one else was.
Siempre

You try to hold it all together when its really falling apart.

Ships sink.
Walls break.
Steal bends.

Jesus walked the earth as a man until he died. He had parents. They supported him. He had friends. They followed him. One may even say they, "had his back". He had God. He supported him, followed him, "had his back", guided him, listened to him, comforted him. God gave him the people in his life because God knew they were supposed to be there.

He had a Heavenly Father, but God gave him one on earth to watch and help him grow. He had a friend in God, but God gave him one on earth to support and help him when he grew weary. As even Jesus did at times. All of these people God put in his life to help him, to see him through, to fellowship with him.

Even Jesus had other people to lean on. We have all we need in God. All we need is all God gives us. He gives us people to lean on when we are weary, when we are hurt, and when we need to have fun and fellowship. You shouldn't walk away from the things God has given you. He doesn't expect us to be perfect and not need help. He only asks that we strive to be better and more like Him. To do that we must use the tools we've been given. Those are sometimes the people in our lives. Not all of them, but you know the ones, you'll always know.

Its okay to break down. Its okay to cry. Its okay to not be perfect and put together all the time. Its okay to not be able to pick up someone else's pieces.

The only way we can pick up the pieces of others is if they help us pick up our own.

Everyone has pieces and everyone's pieces fall. Its a two way street.

When you are weak, I'll be strong. If I'm not, we'll be strong together. Two heads are better than one and two halves make a whole.

If you ever find yourself in pieces you know who to call, first God, then someone who can help you pick them up. You can call me, always.
No one is perfect. Everyone falls.
Its how you get back up thats important.

OH, WHY YOU LOOK SO SAD?
TEARS ARE IN YOUR EYES
COME ON AND COME TO ME NOW
DON'T BE ASHAMED TO CRY
LET ME SEE YOU THROUGH
'CAUSE I'VE SEEN THE DARK SIDE TOO
WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
NOTHING YOU CONFESS
COULD MAKE ME LOVE YOU LESS

I'LL STAND BY YOU

SO IF YOU'RE MAD, GET MAD
DON'T HOLD IT ALL INSIDE
COME ON AND TALK TO ME NOW
HEY, WHAT YOU GOT TO HIDE?
I GET ANGRY TOO
WELL I'M A LOT LIKE YOU
WHEN YOU'RE STANDING AT THE CROSSROADS
AND DON'T KNOW WHICH PATH TO CHOOSE
LET ME COME ALONG
'CAUSE EVEN IF YOU'RE WRONG

I'LL STAND BY YOU


Be the friend we all want. One that picks up the pieces, not the one that throws more down.
y luego vimos Hairspray en nuestra ropa interior

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Red Sam

Great song! I listen to it turned all the way up...I just like it 'cause its called 'Red Sam' and thats all me. Iconator.com >> Icons >> Other >> Red Sam - Flyleaf

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